What On Earth Am I Doing?!

It’s three o clock in the morning and I’m lying here looking at the ceiling and feeling a whole mix of emotions – excitement, doubt, overwhelm, uncertainty and hope – because I have decided to do something, something big. I have decided to start the Awaken the Goddess movement. I’m not fully aware yet of what this project will entail all I know for now is that I’m kicking off with a big event next year. I’m thinking of a day of workshops, talks, classes, stall holders, laughing, healing and sisterhood. But I don’t want the effects of this event to stop when the doors close at the end of the day – I want to create a community that will stay engaged with each other – A fierce sisterhood of Goddesses! Imagine that, imagine if we all had a community of sister goddesses to rely on. How amazing would that be?

But where did this all begin?

Well, earlier this year I started a course called The Abundant Goddess which has had a profound effect on me. I also stumbled upon a blog called The Sassy She by Lisa Lister who has also written two amazing books which I devoured whole: Code Red and Love Your Lady Landscape. It’s no exaggeration to say that The Abundant Goddess course and these two books have changed my life. Now that’s not to say that they have magically transformed my life with the flick of a magic wand. But what they have done is given me tools that actually work – which means that if I practice what I’ve been taught THAT will transform my life – and it has.

The crazy thing is, the more you get into this stuff, the more there is to learn! And when you are learning something new you want like minded people to explore with and you want to find the people that practice, teach and sell the things that you want. So I went along to mind body spirit type events but I found these too big and impersonal and full of the hard sell. I wanted something more personal, something where I could feel a connection. Where I could find genuine people selling products and services that would be of real value to me.

So one day I was sitting in front of my laptop reading a random email when the Awaken the Goddess idea came to me and all of a sudden this constant ringing I have in my ears went completely silent – everything stood still for a moment. And that’s how the idea was born. Doing something this big, by yourself, is scary. It’s probably the biggest undertaking of my life so far and I’m surprised that I haven’t just put the idea in a box with all the other whimsical ideas I’ve ever had.

All I know is this: Awaken the Goddess has to happen. And. I have to be the one who does it.

You can’t argue with the powers that be when they give you a direct order.